branok: hey! I just read your post about your cleft lip. I actually have like one big tooth in the front of my mouth too, so I don't really have two front teeth. I thought I was the only one! What kind of surgery would they do to fix it? I didn't know they could :O
I don’t know yet, but maybe they could move some teeth :D i was about to ask from my surgerer but he told me that i need to ask some other surgerer and argh. This came up when they were pondering if they should move my jaw forward (they didn’t) and suggested that they could straighten my teeth the same time. They showed me some amazing before-after photos!
Yeah this is awkward
Sharing things about life to the cleft lip tag. And at the same time to people i know omg don’t read. I don’t want to make any tragedy out of my life, i’m quite happy! Mostly!
So i was born with an unusual hole in my face. 100 children in finland are born with cleft lip per year! It’s quite a lot i think! I’ve met some, but i’ve never had a talk with any of them about it. It would be cool if someone shared their experiences with me. I know some people search this tag quite often :>
It’s not that big of a deal really, it hasn’t been to anybody but me and mom (she cried when the hole was stitched, because i didn’t look like the same baby anymore). No one has ever had to come check on me at the hospital or see me my nose packed or yellow and blue. I’ve pretty much kept buddies out of it. Once, when i was 12, a girl asked me what they were going to do with my face in a surgery. I told her that they were going to take some bone insides from my hip and stuff that into the hole between my mouth and nose. She started screaming and ran away…
There are not much memories of people bullying me for the scar though. I’ve also had a very straight jaw. There was an another girl the next year who insulted my oblique nose. I punched her and the teacher made me apologize and hug her. That was so humiliating.
Mostly people just ask me with a shy face what is this scar. They don’t feel sorry for me (like ‘oh poor you with an ugly scar’) or make a big fuss. It’s nice to tell them that i’m a mutant :D it’s nice they ask, it kind of tells me that they do focus on others faces!
But i WAS bullied. The cleft lip made me so special in my mind that i couldn’t fit to the mould even if i wanted to. I actually thought that i had to be the only one to have this much bad luck to be born with a weirdo deformation in the MIDDLE of the face. Then i thought that i’m an alien that has been sent to earth to be lonely. How tragic :D i was about 9 years that time, sounds funny when i’m 19.
This all made me want to fit in some underground culture things (which didn’t exist in the city i live in), so i used to dress very provocatively. That was stupid of me, i just made myself more alienated and unapproachable. I was (i still am) very creative and i needed to show it in everything i did.
So i was bullied for colored red hair, eyeglasses, braces, clothes, not wearing make-up, hobbies and behavior. I could make jokes about my problems with speech but i couldn’t stand people dissing my outfits
I’ve been thinking of repairing my uneven teeth. One of the front teeth is missing, because it grew to a wrong place because of the cleft. I kind of have one big tooth in the middle :Dd i’m very insecure about it. I’m just not sure if i want to go through any pain in my mouth anymore. And what would people think? Plastic surgery omg! Maybe someday. Last year the hospital people told me that my face is finished, it made me feel weird. I don’t think i’m that different-looking from the baby me. So, living happily. Thanks for reading.. Sorry if i sounded too dramatic.
